I have never been so unmotivated in my life. Things were turning up and now they went back down again. I am getting super frustrated. I need to get focused again and get my mind right.

Trying to make it through the next month in one peice and I feel like shyt just keep getting harder by the day. I really want to drop out of school and dead Manhattanville all togehter but I can't because I have to prove them wrong. I really feel like they are setting me up for failure, which is why I know I have to go above and beyond and plan my steps carefully but I just keep slipping.

Yesterday I was on campus for a little while talking to my advisor and I ran into a few people and today I get a phone call from the pain in my ass vp saying I can't "roam the campus" and I am not suppose to be there unless I'm going to class. I thought I was in the clear but I guess not. I don't feel like going to class this weekend and I need to find some motivation to do this.

Shit happens for a reason but I can't see what it is. I just feel myself slippin...