So I survived Valentine's Day alone. Thank God its over. I spent all day yesterday making cards for people who won't get them (its snowed so I am not going outside anytime soon). I was doing fine all day and it seems that as soon as Feb 15th hit (23 min ago) I have started to have thoughts about this time last year.

I was a psycho girlfriend (now EX) and it wasn't fun. All those feelings of insecurity and confusion messed me up for the long haul. We didn't make it past the year mark cuz it all went down hill after February (I hate spelling this month... it annoys me cuz of my esl... just doesn't make sense when you say it... damn silent R).

I was thinking about the whole bull crap and I realized that I'm still hurting. It sucks... Nothing else to say about it but I'm trying to burry the hatchet. By hurting I mean the realtionship as a whole affected me, not just the part that made me go psycho.

"What you did in the past you gotta live with today" as Common put it in the song Faithful. I donno if he is dealing but I sure am.

I never wanna go back to being the person I was at that time in my life. I hated myself for because jealousy is an ugly ass look for me. I just wish men would be blunt, at least with me cuz then I would know what kinda shyt I was getting or got myself into.

I Love/Hate(ed) being in love. Thinking back to that time and that relationship burns a hole in my chest and brings tears to my eyes.

The worst feeling in the world is not being able to trust the person you gave your heart to.

So is it better to know when you are being deceived or is it better to live blindly?
Is is still deceit when the other person doesn't have a clue or what they don't know won't hurt them?
If its all going wrong, is it ok to just make things worse or shouldn't you just try to make things better?

I hate being taken advantage of... Please don't take advantage of me, even if its easy to do it. I'm nice but I'm not slow or stupid.

When its all said and done and you think its over, is it all really over?

(getting super irritated cuz my ipod earphones sound horrible)

I wish certain people would just be honest with themselves (out loud) and to the people they affect.

If its just about sex then make it clear. If its something else then make it clear. I HATE FUZZY.

I'm so frustrated and I think it all came about from reading an excert from Cicero's "On Duties."


Where is the sense of DUTY? ..... in the toilet for some... FUCK!!!! I HATE VALENTINES DAY JUST AS MUCH AS I HATE SPELLING FEBUARY!!!!! (yes is spelt it wrong)

I just want a lil Dedication... thanks Coltrane


Once again my theme song is RIcardo Arjona's "Amarte A Ti".... Amarte a ti no es lo mejor pero es perfecto.... Me hace sufrir, que buena suerte

Such is Life... What would it be without feelings... I'm glad to have felt the series of emotions I felt in 2006 from beginning to end....

When will it end...

Russian Rulet for a kiss anyone...