My Job:
So I wear many hats in my place of employment. I get all types of calls for crazy things on a daily basis and I love the fact that everyday is something new. Today I wish I had a regular job and didn’t care about anything. I started off here as an HEOP Counselor and I loved that job and loved my students (who still come to have sessions with me). Today one of my kids had a crisis and I wish with all my heart that I could have saved her from the pain she felt today. Most of the time my kids come to me with issues about school or a roommate or something I can handle easily and tell them everything will be ok. Today was one of the harder days and life is just not that simple. We all face pain and death is not the easiest thing in the world to deal with.
So this morning I go about my usual business and I get a phone call form "Hazel Eyes” and she is frantic on the phone. So she tells me some hard news: "Arts" mom died today and she just found out and I don't know what to do. I call her Art b/c she's an art major. Art is my hard ass student who never lets her emotions show and she's like Fort Knox when it comes to getting information out of. I would normally be the first person to call in these types of instances but being that Art is the way she is, she didn't want me to know. Hazel Eyes is one of my kids too and very good friends with Art so her immediate reaction is to call me, but then tells me not to tell Art she told me.
I get up get dressed and go looking for Art to make it look as if "I just bumped into you" and to ask "hey what’s wrong why are you crying" but of course it doesn't work out that way. She sees me and starts balling and doesn't really say much when I do find her. I want to start crying because I KNOW but I can't. So I hug her, and watch her get in Hazel Eye's car to be taken home.
I tell her "Please Call ME IF ANYTHING!!!" and let me know you are ok, even though I know she's not. I go back to my office in tears and call the appropriate people so that she is excused form class and go back to sit by the phone and wait to hear form Art or Hazel Eyes.
I call my Mom and tell her I love her (you never know when its your time to go, so make sure you tell people you love them just cuz)
What a morning!
So I wear many hats in my place of employment. I get all types of calls for crazy things on a daily basis and I love the fact that everyday is something new. Today I wish I had a regular job and didn’t care about anything. I started off here as an HEOP Counselor and I loved that job and loved my students (who still come to have sessions with me). Today one of my kids had a crisis and I wish with all my heart that I could have saved her from the pain she felt today. Most of the time my kids come to me with issues about school or a roommate or something I can handle easily and tell them everything will be ok. Today was one of the harder days and life is just not that simple. We all face pain and death is not the easiest thing in the world to deal with.
So this morning I go about my usual business and I get a phone call form "Hazel Eyes” and she is frantic on the phone. So she tells me some hard news: "Arts" mom died today and she just found out and I don't know what to do. I call her Art b/c she's an art major. Art is my hard ass student who never lets her emotions show and she's like Fort Knox when it comes to getting information out of. I would normally be the first person to call in these types of instances but being that Art is the way she is, she didn't want me to know. Hazel Eyes is one of my kids too and very good friends with Art so her immediate reaction is to call me, but then tells me not to tell Art she told me.
I get up get dressed and go looking for Art to make it look as if "I just bumped into you" and to ask "hey what’s wrong why are you crying" but of course it doesn't work out that way. She sees me and starts balling and doesn't really say much when I do find her. I want to start crying because I KNOW but I can't. So I hug her, and watch her get in Hazel Eye's car to be taken home.
I tell her "Please Call ME IF ANYTHING!!!" and let me know you are ok, even though I know she's not. I go back to my office in tears and call the appropriate people so that she is excused form class and go back to sit by the phone and wait to hear form Art or Hazel Eyes.
I call my Mom and tell her I love her (you never know when its your time to go, so make sure you tell people you love them just cuz)
What a morning!
posted by Nifty at 11:36 AM
1 Comments:
Perhaps one of the hardest lessons in having a "spiritual" or biological child is finding peace while they are in pain.
To shield them from their lessons is to spoil them and to leave them vulnerable to fears etc. Its best to let them carry their loads and support them moreso from the side for morality's sake. But don't help them carry, for it will weaken their sight and spiritual strength.
Good job.
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