The greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising up everytime we fall.-- Confucius (551-479 BC) Chinese Philosopher

Hopeful:

He who has health has hope; and he who has hope, has everything.-- Arabian Proverb

Courtesy is simply doing unto others what you would like them to do unto you.-- Anonymous

Lil Bin:


Today I saw the happiest 4.5 month old baby who I adore more than anything. My nephew lil bin bin, as we call him, is just a laughing ball and is as happy as can be. That lil ball of joy has maintained through some hard times and if lil bin bin can make it then so can anyone else....


love that lil baby

Music:

I love the way music can convey your emotions, bring out your feelings, tell you a story, and just make u feel plain old good.

Just a thought....

My boss has a 6 Y/o son and he does the funniest things sometimes. This week his is in the office everyday from 11:15 til whenever his mother comes to get him. He is learning to read (very quickly I must sat) and one of the words he know is OFF. Yesterday, the little rascal that he is, must have discovered the knob in the refrigerator.

So one of the security officers, # 2, goes into the office to talk to Boss. He notices that there is water coming out of the refrigerator, so he opens it. Here is some of the dialogue:

# 2: "Hey chief, why is your fridge off?"
Boss: "Its not off"
#2: "Yea it is." (Turns the knob) {Click sound} "Now its ON"
Boss: (Looks @ Jr.) Did you touch the fridge??"
Jr: "umm I wanted to see the ice melt (gets up and runs away fast)

#2: (exits office walks by Midget) "I hate kids"
Midget: O Boy, he did it again didn't he?
{#2 tells midget the story}
Midget; (Cracking Up) "OMG that is some funny shit!"

Kids are great!

101 ways to make love without doing it: (giggles)

Ok so I'm not listing all 101 but just the top ones that caught my attention and made me laugh.... I got the pamphlet from the health center and it comes from a group of "Iowa HS students who were asked to list other ways besides sexual intercourse that they might use to show they loved someone" (giggles)...

1.Tell the other person you love them
2. Give or get a hug
3. Make the other person feel important and respected
4. Kiss (sometimes leads to sex if you're not careful)
5. Have fun together
(Skipping around a bit)
7. Hold Hands (awwwwww)
12. Go to a movie
17. Snuggle up together
22. Plat a game of Frisbee (yawn)
24. Relax in a whirlpool (umm sooooo leading to sex)
25. Go Swimming (be careful and watch out for the one-eyed snake!)
33. Bake cookies together (giggles)
34. Go to the LIBRARY (so much fun!)
40. Wash each other's Cars (leads to wet tee-shirts... I donno about that one)
41. Go fishing (yawn)
47. Hold one another close (hmm leads to heavy petting... I donno bout that one either)
48. Use eye contact to share private thoughts
53. Meet each other’s family
58. Go for a moonlight walk (very romantic!)
59. Hide a love note where the other will find it (giggles)
60. Give each other sexy looks (hmm very suggestive)
71. Propose Marriage (wow that’s a big one!)
73. Be Best Friends
75. Go out dancing
77. Flirt with each other (be careful with this one)
79. Be faithful (awwwww)
81. Make a list of things you like about each other
85. Cook each other’s favorite food
88. Be caring
90. GIVE DIMONDS (hmm)
91. Dedicate a song on the radio (so lame but funny)
94. Play Footsie (LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOO who does that!?!?!?!?!)
99. Trade Class Rings (awww so 1950s)
And last but not least.....
101. Have your picture taken together


This cracked me up but some of them definitely will not lead to sex... but a hell of a lot of them will if you are a horny hormone driven teenager!

LMAO

Maria:

Today I really miss you… It's weird how you were always there and the memories seem so far away but you were always there. To you I owe my entire existence. Without you there since the beginning, where would all of us have been? You raised all 40 of us!

Thanks for being who you are and for everything you did to make me laugh and cry.

The Chop:


Hair grows right??!??! So why should I care about cutting it again? I had short hair for a while and getting another haircut should be chips, right?? Ha I'm having some hair issues and it has nothing to do with my hair but all about promises.

I cut my hair after I graduated from College (in 2004) to give myself a more grown up look (since everyone thinks I look 15) and to get ready to enter the "real world." That wasn't my first chop either; I had cut off all my hair when I was a sophomore because I wanted to go natural. But anyway, shortly after I got my "grown and sexy" cut I saw my Great Grandmother, Maria (AKA Mama), and by that time she was in the mid stages of Alzheimer’s disease and still had some in and out moments. So around Mother's Day that year the entire family was at my mom's house and Mama was chillin at her usual spot on the comfy couch and I walk over to sit next to her. I ask her the usual question "Como se siente hoy?" (How are you feeling today?) and she gives me my favorite response "Viva!" (Alive!). We have a giggle and start our usual random conversations and we start talking about her hair and how long it was and how she got her name Maria Moñaso in Las Guaranas back in the day because she had really long hair she would put in a big bun. She looked at me and tells me that I should have long hair because it suits me better and not to chop my hair like my mom.

So Since then I have only cut my hair three times, once because it was growing out funny and the other two because I needed to get a trim. Well my last trim was about a year ago and I have managed to keep it decent looking for a while. Unfortunately my hair was heavily mistreated while I was on vacation and since I have been back, I haven't had time to get it fixed or trimmed (so mad at myself). Now it looks a hot mess and I might have to give it a good chop and my hair hasn't been this long since HS (maybe even middle school).

I feel bad about breaking my promise because my little birdie Mama passed away 4 months ago and things haven't been the same since and my hair is one thing I didn’t want to change. I guess I'm just gonna have to let that got for a while and start all over again. But it really does hurt and a huge part of me is still not over her departure.

While waiting for Mexican Food Delivery:


Sometimes I get carried away with my thoughts and end up in far away places. While searching for an article about something Peter told me, I got so wrapped up in my extensive google search that I think I ended up with more information then I really needed to know. The news can take things over board sometimes and really put people's information out there. It only took me about 5 or 10 min to learn about someone's life story (way more then I needed to know).

Hmmm still thinking about this one.... Hunger is stopping me from finishing

Thoughts on My Job:

So I work at a private College and we do things our own way which, sometimes is the ass backwards way. So the "College Officials Up High in the Palace" decided that today there would be a 12 hour power outage so that they could work on the electrical wiring for our new "Student Center" project that is currently under construction.

HOW STUPID ARE THESE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!! Its one thing to lose power due to the greatness of Mother Nature (usually happens during the Summer but we had one in the Winter early last semester) but to purposely cut off power in the beginning of the school year when we have crazy sex, drugs, and alcohol driven young adults running around is just insane.

I work for the Dean and that means more work for me tomorrow. I have a feeling a large part of the FR class will get in trouble for some sort of stupidity. But we do try to "Keep them out of the Dorms" with movies in the cafeteria on the big screen and pop corn. I don't know about you but when I was a FR I would rather go out and play pranks, drink, and be crazy than watch some stupid movie, but that’s just me.

I have to show up at the Movie Night as part of my job responsibilities (thank God I live in Campus) and be on call incase any craziness arises and I am needed (previous crooked RA )

We shall see what happens... say a little prayer and I hope this years FR class is a little calmer then the previous years

Fish and The Napoleon Complex:

I cleaned out my fish tank and I'm happy my fish have a clean environment. It was kinda nasty but in the process of cleaning I realized some things.

1. If I love my fish as much as I claim, I need to do right by them and clean the damn tank every 2-3 weeks
2. I must purchase snails and sucker fish to aid in decreasing the damn Algae!!!
3. Must also add new friends to the tank
4. Chin (the shark) is getting way tooooo big
5. I have the Napoleon Complex

YES PEOPLE I have the NEPOLEON COMPLEX aka the short peoples complex and I'm in denial about it but it is sooooooooo clear. So for a pretty short chick, I tend to think I'm Super Woman and can do things that will have no affect on me. Today’s events are a perfect example of this:

I have a 10 gallon in my office tank which obviously needs 10 gallons of water. So, I clean out all the gunk from the tank and drain the dirty water into a big ass Deer Park water Jug thingy which holds about maybe 7 or 8 gallons of water (and is SUPER HEAVY). When I fill up that one I (4'11.5" 115lbs) pick up the jug and carry it out to the patio of my office and dump it on the grass (TRIP 1). Then go back and add another gallon or two to the jug and dump that out as well (TRIP 2). Then I "borrow" a new Jug of water and pick that one up from the other end of the outer office and carry it to my office to pick it up higher and pour it into the tank. I noticed i needed waaaaaaaaaay more water so I take the empty jug and my water drain thingy to the women’s bathroom and fill it up more than half way and carry it back to my office (TRIP 3). Keep in mind I never asked for help.

About 20 minutes later I'm sitting down complaining about lunch and how my boss and I have yet to eat (its 2pm) and then I go to stand up and I have the SHAPEST PAIN IN MY BACK!! See that’s what I get for being miss "I CAN DO IT ON MY OWN THANKS!"

I have several other examples of how I like to show that yes I Ms. 4'11.5" CAN in FACT do what I say I am going to do even if you doubt my abilities because of my petite demeanor. So today i just came to the realization that my need to prove people wrong has lead to my creating of the Napoleon Complex.

I am very strong and have found creative ways to get things "out of my reach" but I have a problem when people assume that because I am short, a female, and rather small framed that I CAN'T DO IT!!!

My body is now telling me "Bitch you're getting older so stop trying to be Super Midget!!!!!!"

So I sit here in bed with back pain.... OUCH

My Job:

So I wear many hats in my place of employment. I get all types of calls for crazy things on a daily basis and I love the fact that everyday is something new. Today I wish I had a regular job and didn’t care about anything. I started off here as an HEOP Counselor and I loved that job and loved my students (who still come to have sessions with me). Today one of my kids had a crisis and I wish with all my heart that I could have saved her from the pain she felt today. Most of the time my kids come to me with issues about school or a roommate or something I can handle easily and tell them everything will be ok. Today was one of the harder days and life is just not that simple. We all face pain and death is not the easiest thing in the world to deal with.

So this morning I go about my usual business and I get a phone call form "Hazel Eyes” and she is frantic on the phone. So she tells me some hard news: "Arts" mom died today and she just found out and I don't know what to do. I call her Art b/c she's an art major. Art is my hard ass student who never lets her emotions show and she's like Fort Knox when it comes to getting information out of. I would normally be the first person to call in these types of instances but being that Art is the way she is, she didn't want me to know. Hazel Eyes is one of my kids too and very good friends with Art so her immediate reaction is to call me, but then tells me not to tell Art she told me.

I get up get dressed and go looking for Art to make it look as if "I just bumped into you" and to ask "hey what’s wrong why are you crying" but of course it doesn't work out that way. She sees me and starts balling and doesn't really say much when I do find her. I want to start crying because I KNOW but I can't. So I hug her, and watch her get in Hazel Eye's car to be taken home.

I tell her "Please Call ME IF ANYTHING!!!" and let me know you are ok, even though I know she's not. I go back to my office in tears and call the appropriate people so that she is excused form class and go back to sit by the phone and wait to hear form Art or Hazel Eyes.

I call my Mom and tell her I love her (you never know when its your time to go, so make sure you tell people you love them just cuz)

What a morning!

So I like to take pics of things that I see that catch my eye but I'm not a photographer. Never took a class but its always been one of my fascinations. I love black and whites and play around with it a lot but I'm no photographer...

This is my fave pic right now....

I took this while on a road trip in DR in August....

I love graffiti and city street art too and I was trying to act like a photographer on Union Square on nice summer day and this is what I shot....

I get bored a lot whichis really bad but most of the time I get creative

My energy levels are rediculous today... One minute I'm up and the next I'm ready to crash (No I'm not on drugs).

I need to clean my fish tank. I feel bad for the ecosystem I created in my 10 gallon tank. I love Fish!!! I have 6 betas, a Catfish and a Fresh Water Shark.... they are my children@ work.

Time:

They say "time heals all" but how much time is required to heal???? Like for example, I can “heal" very fast when I want to forget the pain of the wound, but the scar is still there. When I really want to heal, it can take weeks, months and some wounds have never even healed and it’s been years. Sometimes it’s not as easy to let go of the past pains but they say "the past is in the past"... I used to modify that one "the past is in the past til it bites you in the ass." I kinda let that one go but sometimes it does come back to haunt you.... that’s why now I try to handle my business so nothing can come back and bite me, but its not that easy....

So what happens when you are the cause of someone's pain and how do you help them heal when they don't want to or see the need for healing?? Do you just leave them alone with open wounds to grow maggots?? I hope not... I tried to help some one heal and I hope it worked but after a while a person has to be able to look with in themselves and see what is really the cause of their aching, because sometimes the responsible person is themselves....

Ok FYI I am not so crazy 24y/o chick who is stuck on the fantasy world of Peter Pan and other cartoon characters. It comes from a joke.... I just realized what my blog must look like to others (always keep your audience in mind). Nor is it for me to profess some undying love for some cat I call Peter (quite frankly he's a pain in the ass lol).

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY:

Decide on what you think is right, and stick to it.-- George Eliot (1819-1880) English Novelist

LMFAO... I love Tink!!! Thanks for the name Peter I wish they had a more ethnic looking Tink to go with my 3rd World Status

So today has been a day full of self discovery and realizations. I faced my new big fear and now I’m preparing for whatever may come next. I had the most intense series of conversations today with a person who was very dear to me and we each faced each other and told each other the truth about how we really felt. The TRUTH will in fact set you free!!!! I never cried more in my life (OK I LOVE TO exaggerate, I cried waaaaay more at my great grand ma's funeral) But any who, I made great discoveries about how to face and conquer my fears and my good friend Peter was there to debrief after.... I love Peter more each day because he is my guide and my teacher but I teach his ass a few lessons too...

He says he learns from my growth but if it wasn’t for him picking my brain I wouldn't think as hard. (I'm actually smart but underestimated and I am a horrible speller.) So I learned that I must value myself and remember to NEVER SETTLE!!!!! (yes even for you Peter)


So today’s moral is that you must face your fears and conquer (for now) because you never know what’s behind the next door waiting for you. So as usual after all was said and done Peter asked his usual series of questions because I'm not allowed to be general or vague around him and he as usual told me a story and then broke it down to me. Here's a piece of the quote (and convo) he used today:

ljupiterstar: I don't want to be in a situation where I am so focused and worried about the other person that I let things slide and don't take care of myself and I have to make sure I'm taken care of as well.... I gave him a lot of my energy and myself but I forgot to take care of me..... I can't forget about me again and if I'm not happy or see something wrong going on I have to say even if I know the other person is going through it.... I didn't say anything back then because of everything else he was stressin over
sochira: :-)
sochira: im proud of you
ljupiterstar: Lol
sochira: humbled
ljupiterstar: :-)
ljupiterstar: You helped me
sochira: nah
ljupiterstar: Thank you
sochira: nono thank u
ljupiterstar: Y
sochira: NEVER settle... you're too precious... you're worth to much to be treated less than the best by YOURSELF...
ljupiterstar: Thanks
sochira: you're a living lesson... that's why i said thank u
ljupiterstar: I had help
ljupiterstar: I didn't do it alone
sochira: don't settle for your own BS...

If you really want to pass this barrier, you should feel as if you had a hot
iron ball embedded in your throat. You can neither swallow it nor spit it out.
Then your previous lesser knowledge disappears. Like a fruit ripening in season,
your subjectivity and objectivity naturally become one. You are like a dumb man
who has had a dream. Your ego shell is crushed and you can shake the heaven and
move the earth. You are like a great warrior holding a sharp sword. If a Buddha
stands in your way, cut him down. If a Patriarch blocks your way, kill him. You
will be free from birth and death. You will be able to enter any world as it
were your own playground. I will tell you how to do this with this koan.

So this is all new to me. I'm not one for public displays of my information but my good friend "Peter" did it so I decided to give this a try. Peter cracks me up with his antics and everyday is a new adventure with him but in general something is ALWAYS going on in the world of this 4 foot 11 inch female.

I guess I will use this to begin the stories and craziness that goes on, hence the name Midget Chronicles.